Beyond my years...

I believe that because I am married at a young age I have experienced different things than 21 year olds at my age. Not only do I not go out and party, I do not mind to just sit at home and watch TV, and I have a lot of older friends that I connect to and relate to better. It even happens when I am blog hopping, I connect to older women because other than the kids part we usually have a lot more in common. 

I also actually like school for the most part, I like learning. I could live without the homework part though, but I do know its purpose and understand that its just part of it. I understand there is value in truly learning and that we are not here to gain friends. 

I also believe that my major has made me grow more than others at times. Social Work is not only a hard major, (we all believe that we write so much that we should receive a technical writing minor automatically) but it also is a different mindset than other majors have. We want to help people, and not just any people, we want to help the people that sometimes no one else wants to help. 

Lastly, I think about the future a ton. I know some college students do this in some way, but I go to the extremes so I know how important it is to save money for the later in life. I have never lived in a house throughout my whole life so planning for a big purchase like that is a must for me. Chad and I have drawn up designs on the computer, some what of a blue print type design for our dream house. Since my scholarship offers me a job after school I know the whereabouts of where we might live as well. 

I know all these things are not bad, but because I do things like this and more it is hard to connect at times with people my own age because we are into different things. But I am learning to accept that and be thankful for the friends I have, including bloggers. I also think this is an advantage because I am more mature and ready to network for work. 

sincerely,

thankful now

Why I don't wear makeup

I have always dealt with this constant struggle with my whole image, not just my face from time to time but also my body overall. But, it is no wonder because of the constant messages I see saying that thin is in and makeup is the thing. Don't get me wrong I love makeup and I am not saying it is bad to put on, but what if I do not want to put it on just because? should I be judged differently? should I be judged differently if I decide to put it on another day? the answer should be no to both.

In high school, I always wore a little bit of makeup, mainly eyeliner and powder just something to highlight my eyes and that was it. But after high school, school got really hard and I no longer had the time or the urge to use it. So I didn't. Every now and then I do, but when I  do it itches terribly or bothers my contacts to the point of me rubbing it all off. There is just no point in me using it if it makes me uncomfortable is my thoughts.

But I have been criticized because I do not wear it from time to time. Saying if I would put it on, I would look prettier. And that is the problem I have with makeup.

I wanna wear it just because I wanna wear it and make me feel like I took the extra effort because I don't know just because, not because I have to either. I have tried to stress this to others that makeup is just not my thing, but some do not get it.

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